I think as humans we are too scared to say what we should. We hold back so we don't look too attached or maybe we are just scared of what they might think. I try so hard to say exactly what I feel, when I feel it. This has hurt me so much more than if I just kept it to myself but I continue to be honest and true to myself no matter the consequences.
There are things I want to tell someone but I know its not the right time, its best if I wait, I don't want to scare him off.
I think of you everyday. I miss you so much more than I thought I would, I cant go one day without crying because I miss you so much. When I told you to move downstairs...I wanted you to say no, that you did not know where we were going but you enjoyed staying with me. I wanted to tell you NOT to go but I knew it was best for you to move and do what you needed to do in order to get yourself where you want to be. I fell so hard for you even thou I tried so hard not too. I wanted you to tell me that you felt somewhat the same. I know you didn't want forever or even a relationship but I thought maybe you enjoyed me enough to take a little bit of a leap. I want you to ask me to come see you, I would be there in a heartbeat. The house is not the same without you, we all miss you!
I wish I could tell you all of this!
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